The Night I Came Back to My Father
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I laid awake, thinking about every wrong decision I had made.
Why did I say yes to him?
Why did I choose to ignore the promptings of the Holy Spirit?
Why did I choose the carnal way?
I craved attention
I wanted emotional closeness
God was there for me but it wasn't enough
I wanted a physical touch
Someone to hold me when I'm down
Someone to hug me
Someone to brush my hair against the wind, to whisper hope in my ears when I feel overwhelmed.
I wanted love, little did I know that I awakened it when it wasn't time.
I found lust instead of love
What I craved, he never gave me enough,
He even took more away from me
I kept moving farther away from God
I couldn't hear him anymore
I yearned for him but I didn't know how to get close
How did I get here?
The same God that once told me he was proud of me, Him, I could no longer feel.
The day my eyes opened was the day he told me I was no longer enough for him.
I cried to God
I wept and wept
How did this happen?
I told my father, I am sorry
Like the prodigal son, he hugged me and we cried
He told me He'would always be enough for me
He'll listen to everything I have to say
He drew me close and I said "I miss my daddy"
He smiled more and he drew me closer
Oh what a father
Oh what love!
I love how he loves me
And one day, I hope to hear "well done my good and faithful servant".